I’m leaving in….36 hours? I have not started packing. Nothing is gathered or together. Laundry isn’t done. Well, it’s washed, but not folded. Traveling isn’t difficult for me. Packing isn’t difficult. So….what’s the fucking problem? Why am I suddenly SO paralyzed with anxiety and depression that NOTHING can get done? Am I so much of […]
What is wrong with me? Read More »
In typical my blog fashion, we’re going to start the week off with another, some sort of, oh, Monday post. My husband left the house to get some work done at 6am this morning, leaving me to get all the kids up and going by myself. That’s not a big deal, it’s something I do,
Is this called progress? Read More »
It’s finally July, probably my favorite month of the year. Despite the fact that the heat this year is absolutely destroying my body…July feels festive. July is home to my birthday, on the 8th, and this year, that’s also the day the my vacation starts! I’m so excited to go away. My last trip to
Yesterday was one of those days that just, all around a good day. The kids didn’t wake me up in the morning. The baby slept through the night. We bought a new camera (I LOVE my Sony a7iii but we wanted something smaller as well), and a new mic. The kids ate their dinner without
A few years ago, I made the decision to start sharing my life again. I started writing, I started blogging, and I started getting more involved in the online community here on WordPress. I’ve made some genuine, real friends, I’ve gained perspective, and it’s been nothing but good. I have no intention to stop blogging
A new journey, finding hope. Read More »
Do you know what’s even more exhausting than going to therapy? Going to therapy with your husband. When all your walls are up. All your fuck its are present, and your sarcasm to get through it is at an all time high. My husband has been to therapy with me on several occasions. So this
Go away, feelings. Read More »
I’ve said if before recently, but I’ll say it again. Today is a weird kind of Monday. My husband is just…home. He’s home now. No work, no obligations, nothing. So we’re all just… home. He quit his job last Thursday, putting in his 2 week notice. But he’s the most valuable person at his job,
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The last few days have been kind of a whirlwind, but it hasn’t been all awful. We let the older kids (6 and 4) sleep out for the first time ever last night. My husbands mom has been asking for a while, and I always say no. I didn’t want someone else watching them, I
Well…shit. I’m not even sure if I have the words tonight. To put it simply….no, I guess I can’t even do that. It isn’t simple. Nothing is simple. If today has proved anything to me, it’s that quite literally, nothing is simple. My husband quit his job today. Everything feels up in the air and
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My strongest desire right now is to run. Run from my life. Run from my problems, run from my fears. Right now, things are just about as bad as they get. On the outside? I’m seemingly very strong. Very put together…very normal. But that’s not how I’m feeling. I’m feeling frantic. I’m feeling overwhelmed. And