Have you ever woke up at 6am and promptly had a panic attack? No? Well, neither have I…until this morning. As soon as I woke up this morning, I felt absolutely crushed and overwhelmed with anxiety. The thought of having to do this all over again…the routine, therapies, appointments, stuck with my kids who really […]
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Things have been weird lately. After spending 3 weeks in my own while my husband was away taking care of his dad, every day just started to look and feel the same. He’s been back for a week now. But even since he came back, weekends have given me a certain sense of anxiety and
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It’s been kind of the week from hell, and while I normally don’t love Fridays, I am SO glad that we’re finally here. The week started off with my oldest son getting an EEG. Then he had an appointment with the sleep medicine doctor, and he’ll be getting a sleep study soon. The next day,
In need of a miracle, and the actual week from hell Read More »
I think it’s fair to say that the hardest topic for me to write about it my kids and their struggles. All 3 of my kids struggle physically, a courtesy of the genetic disorder that the 4 of us share. But sometimes, my oldest son in particular, struggles with behavior as well. Now, this is
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Sometimes, special needs parenting is really fucking hard. This is one of those weeks. My 6 year old had a seizure a few nights ago, he has an appointment to be seen Thursday morning. Obviously it’s scary for all of the reasons you might expect. But his behavior has been freaking atrocious since then. It’s
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I’m leaving in….36 hours? I have not started packing. Nothing is gathered or together. Laundry isn’t done. Well, it’s washed, but not folded. Traveling isn’t difficult for me. Packing isn’t difficult. So….what’s the fucking problem? Why am I suddenly SO paralyzed with anxiety and depression that NOTHING can get done? Am I so much of
What is wrong with me? Read More »
Last night, my husband and I were talking about our 4 year old son, Phoenix, and a….different…approach to parenting him that I’ve been trying recently. which has…seemed to work? Basically, the more over the top negative and attention seeking he is, the more aggressively over the top positive I am with him. COMPLETELY ignoring his
Sarcasm, parenting, and finding things to laugh about. Read More »
It’s begun to feel a bit like war has broken out between myself and my 4 year old. Whereas I thought the hardest part of my summer would be having my 6 year old home from school, turns out, it’s my 4 year old being a giant pain in the ass. (Look, this blog is
Sometimes, I really hate being a parent. Today is one of those days. I’m angry and frustrated and more exhausted than I can put into words. We transitioned the 6 month old baby from his bassinet in my room to his crib in his room last night. I knew it would be a hard transition…but
Transitions really suck Read More »
Today was one of those days that just started off horribly. I woke up abruptly from a nightmare, to a real life nightmare. At least, that’s what it felt like. Yesterday we had some horrible storms and massive flooding in our area. Yet, I still had to drive my son to school, and my other
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