The last few days have been kind of a whirlwind, but it hasn’t been all awful. We let the older kids (6 and 4) sleep out for the first time ever last night. My husbands mom has been asking for a while, and I always say no. I didn’t want someone else watching them, I […]
Well…shit. I’m not even sure if I have the words tonight. To put it simply….no, I guess I can’t even do that. It isn’t simple. Nothing is simple. If today has proved anything to me, it’s that quite literally, nothing is simple. My husband quit his job today. Everything feels up in the air and
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In 17 days (which happens to be my birthday), I’m flying to Florida to go on vacation. Without kids (which makes me happy), and without my husband (which makes me sad). I’m going to Universal with my older brother and my parents. Just the 4 of us haven’t gone on vacation without my husband since
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As per usual, my whirlwind of a life continues. Have you ever gone to therapy and word vomited for 2 hours straight? That’s what it felt like last night. It felt like I just nervous talked and didn’t stop the entire time. What the hell is that about? I don’t know. I left hating myself,
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The best part about Mondays is that I have therapy (nearly) every Monday night. It truly makes Mondays tolerable. it’s the only thing that makes it tolerable. I had a great 6 hours over the weekend. The baby took a 3 hour nap on Saturday AND Sunday. And my husband took the kids out during
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My strongest desire right now is to run. Run from my life. Run from my problems, run from my fears. Right now, things are just about as bad as they get. On the outside? I’m seemingly very strong. Very put together…very normal. But that’s not how I’m feeling. I’m feeling frantic. I’m feeling overwhelmed. And
When I tell you that I had a phenomenally bad day yesterday…I truly mean just that. I mean that it was an egregiously bad day. And I never want to think about it again or relive it. By some kind of actual miracle, I ended up having therapy yesterday afternoon. I didn’t have my typical
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I will say, not having therapy last night really threw me off. I’m a big fan of routine and consistency and normalcy. But more importantly than that…I’m a big fan of self care. And healing. And taking the time for myself. The 2 hours I get to spend in therapy every Monday is just that.
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Well. This Monday morning got off to an absolutely unnecessary start. We woke up (were woken up) by my older 2 kids screaming in their rooms at like 5:45. Fine. Whatever. I’ll just start my day and drink coffee with my husband like we do every morning. But then my husband ignores me for 10
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Last night, my husband and I were talking about our 4 year old son, Phoenix, and a….different…approach to parenting him that I’ve been trying recently. which has…seemed to work? Basically, the more over the top negative and attention seeking he is, the more aggressively over the top positive I am with him. COMPLETELY ignoring his
Sarcasm, parenting, and finding things to laugh about. Read More »