I’ve had a phenomenally bad week. It’s been one of grief and loss and pain and anger. On April 4th, my birth sons birthday, one of my really good friends delivered her baby sleeping. She had a placental abruption, and the baby didn’t make it. It’s been completely devastating, and I’ve been feeling that grief …
It’s been 4 days since baby Atlas was born, and we’ve been adjusting to life with him since. Aside from night 2, which was by far the worst, things with him have been going rather well. He naps for 2 and a half hours at a time, he wakes to eat and get his diaper …
We got home from the hospital yesterday around 4pm. The kids met their new baby brother and opened their “big brother” gifts and had were very excited about the whole thing. After they went to bed, reality sink in and I kind of started to panic and get some really bad anxiety. Looking over at …
After a whirlwind past few days, I can finally say that our son, baby Atlas Isaac, is here. If you’re wondering about the the details of how it all went, here it goes. We got to the hospital at 8pm after calling and them telling us when to arrive. They did not have any beds …
Well, it’s here. Induction day is here. After 39 weeks, a lot of chaos, and a lot of patience…it’s finally time to meet this baby. We are scheduled to get to the hospital at 5pm and the actual induction process should happen I think sometime in the early morning. Since I’m already pretty far progressed …
Well, if all goes according to plan, late tomorrow night is baby day. As long as the hospital has a bed open (which really is very hit or miss), I’ll be getting induced late tomorrow night, like after 10pm, and we will have our baby boy here by early Tuesday morning. If there isn’t a …
Yesterday at my 38 week appointment, because yes, I’m still freaking pregnant, my doctor told me that I was already 3-4cm dilated. Which, yes, is a lot. Usually, by the time you’re at 4cm, you’re already well on your way to being in active labor. But yeah, my body just doesn’t want to cooperate fully …
There’s not much I have to say right now. Or, maybe, more accurately, I’m feeling far too many things to know how to adequately put them into words. I had therapy last night, and I don’t know. It was a little okay, a little interesting, and a little hard. We did end up watching that …
I woke up today with a sense of anxiety and sadness. I don’t know why, I rarely do, but it’s just very present. Things have been a bit overwhelming in my life lately, and I’ve resorted to basically extreme avoidance as a way of dealing with it. But when I get more avoidant, I usually …
Ahhhhggggg!!!! That’s how I’m feeling this morning. Like, I kind of just want to scream a little bit. Waking up still pregnant this morning was like a punch in the gut. My husband and I both felt the same way…like, just completely devastated that we have to begin another week in our “normalcy”. Him going …